Like any person, I have days that I don't feel like I've made that many gains in this project in terms of internal progress. However, last night was one of those times I could definitely feel the improvement. Wearing bows (for whatever crazy reason) helps me to feel comfortable in my own skin... Whatever it takes, right?
In happy news, Monday, September 12th is Half-Way Bow Day. I am 182/366 (it's a leap year) done with my mandatory sentence for today... I am aware that usually "mandatory sentence" is not a phrase with a positive connotation... However, I am not really sure what to do after this whole thing is over. I am a bit lost about what I will do on that 367th day...
Even if I do become Bow Girl internally... I don't know if taking the bow out of the equation will throw me off kilter. It's hard to predict. I am a bit nervous that it's becoming like my long hair: a security blanket that I am scared to do away with. I also have a bump in my hair where the bow sits... and I don't think anyone would recognize me without it. The other day I wore a black bow in honor of Dean McLeod's passing, and some people didn't see my bow at first. The response was pretty dramatic. There were some gasps. None of the freshmen (and many others at college) have seen me bowless... The thought kind of gives me a weird feeling... like that dream where you go to school in your underwear.
Anyway, I realize this is writing heavy and that most people prefer picture heavy posts, but I haven't actually been analytical/verbose in a while on here (I just finished my first college paper tonight, so maybe I am just in a writing mood.).

Bow Girl
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